I am the way and you dont seek me
I am the truth and you dont believe me
I am the life and you dont enjoy me
I am your Redeemer and you forget!
I am your Savior and you reject me
I am merciful and you always abuse
I am your Guide and you dont follow me
I am just and you are wary
I am love and you chase me
I am light and you dont see me
You call me Teacher but never learn
You call me Good and you dont estimate me
You call me Holy but you dont imitate what I do
You call me Shepherd and you dont listen to me
You call me Lord and you dont obey
You call me King and you make fun of me
You call me Eternal and you dont wait for me
You call me Friend and you betray me
You call me Rich and you dont ask
I gave you memory and you forgot that I am alive
I gave you inteligence and you dont understand me
The more I forgive you, the more you offend me
I wait for you and you dont come
I take care of you and you are not thankful
I seek for you and you hide from me
I call you and you dont listen
I give you a lot and you demand me more
I make you rich and you are corrupt
I make you poor and you get mad at me
I make you wise and you despise me
I make you important and you denigrate me
I make you my son and you dont honor me
Finally, I am your God and you dont have fear
My Glory is yours, if you are unhappy dont blame me..
because I have come to give you all of this and abundanly
Friday, October 12, 2007
Thursday, October 4, 2007
God.speaks!
I am so happy! Even if I am not feeling happy I decide to be..
God is my Father and He shows me a lot of things throughout my life.. There is not day when I cannot see His promises and His gifts to me.. When I see all the things He has done for me like giving me air to breathe and the sun's light over me.. I can feel His warmness around me with the embrace He gives me. There are so many ways for God to speak .. It can be through a dream, vision, audible voice, songs, through a person or through His Word! But He is always going to share His heart with me..
Going back to my dts story..
We had this week called: "How to study the Bible.." and it was awesome!! I learned a lot... The speaker was telling us all of this cool things about the Bible and how to put it into practice..
During this time, last year.. i was so confused about my life.. i did not know what to do! I was ready to go to Medical School.. but was it God's dream for me?! I wanted to go to college so bad that being in dts i took this admission test in Dentist School.. and you know what?!?! I was accepted!!! There was two things that I was worrying about: Finishing my dts or going to my dream..
It was a hard decision.. it was not easy AT ALL! I needed to decide if I wanted to go on Outreach and finish my dts or just forget about it and go to college.. The staff told me that if I wanted to go it was fine but that i needed to finish my program and going to Outreach the next year with different team or something.. but they advised me that it would be hard because my team would feel sad because I would leave them and at the same time I would not enjoy my time in college because i would be thinking about Outreach and how it would be..
SO, I had times praying and asking God: What do you want to do with me?!..
I felt like He did not answer back.. hahaha it is funny because when I more needed it God was testing my patience and He was just waiting to see my reaction and to see what decision I would take.. By this I am to saying that God does not answer, because He does.. but there are times where He just waits so see our attitude about it.. and for us to see the way we are without Him. I prayed a lot.. and I wasn't sure if I was getting something from God.. but I remember the speaker talking about this puzzle, he said that our lives are like a puzzle and we should allow God to put the pieces where ever He wants to.. that's the way He is going to make perfect our lives and then its when we are going to start living with a purpose.. with God's purpose. Then he said that when we decide to go in a different path (our own path), God blesses us anyway! But there is God's perfect will fulfilled if we choose to take His path.
So, I said: "OK God, where do you want me?!?! Please tell me!! I need to decide it now!!
But the only thing that came to my mind was to do what I thought was the best.. He was going to bless me any way.. It was so tempting to decide to go to school but I knew God wasnt gonna show me the same things at school than the things He would show me if I decided to go to outreach.. so its then when I decided to start living by faith..
I chose to go to outreach.. and my place was Thailand.
So I started to live by faith knowing that I was doing God's will.. and I felt this awesome peace telling me that I was doing right. God started to bless me in awesome ways! I knew I was in His path and I felt confident with what I was doing. God had put Thailand in my heart and its still there.. The team was so happy that I decided to finish my dts with them and I knew I was doing right..
Living by faith is the title of my blog because it is what I started doing then and I am living by it still.. It is amazing to let God take control of your life and direct you to where He wants you to be.
I encourage you to do the same.. live by faith! Let God to take control of your life..
God is my Father and He shows me a lot of things throughout my life.. There is not day when I cannot see His promises and His gifts to me.. When I see all the things He has done for me like giving me air to breathe and the sun's light over me.. I can feel His warmness around me with the embrace He gives me. There are so many ways for God to speak .. It can be through a dream, vision, audible voice, songs, through a person or through His Word! But He is always going to share His heart with me..
Going back to my dts story..
We had this week called: "How to study the Bible.." and it was awesome!! I learned a lot... The speaker was telling us all of this cool things about the Bible and how to put it into practice..
During this time, last year.. i was so confused about my life.. i did not know what to do! I was ready to go to Medical School.. but was it God's dream for me?! I wanted to go to college so bad that being in dts i took this admission test in Dentist School.. and you know what?!?! I was accepted!!! There was two things that I was worrying about: Finishing my dts or going to my dream..
It was a hard decision.. it was not easy AT ALL! I needed to decide if I wanted to go on Outreach and finish my dts or just forget about it and go to college.. The staff told me that if I wanted to go it was fine but that i needed to finish my program and going to Outreach the next year with different team or something.. but they advised me that it would be hard because my team would feel sad because I would leave them and at the same time I would not enjoy my time in college because i would be thinking about Outreach and how it would be..
SO, I had times praying and asking God: What do you want to do with me?!..
I felt like He did not answer back.. hahaha it is funny because when I more needed it God was testing my patience and He was just waiting to see my reaction and to see what decision I would take.. By this I am to saying that God does not answer, because He does.. but there are times where He just waits so see our attitude about it.. and for us to see the way we are without Him. I prayed a lot.. and I wasn't sure if I was getting something from God.. but I remember the speaker talking about this puzzle, he said that our lives are like a puzzle and we should allow God to put the pieces where ever He wants to.. that's the way He is going to make perfect our lives and then its when we are going to start living with a purpose.. with God's purpose. Then he said that when we decide to go in a different path (our own path), God blesses us anyway! But there is God's perfect will fulfilled if we choose to take His path.
So, I said: "OK God, where do you want me?!?! Please tell me!! I need to decide it now!!
But the only thing that came to my mind was to do what I thought was the best.. He was going to bless me any way.. It was so tempting to decide to go to school but I knew God wasnt gonna show me the same things at school than the things He would show me if I decided to go to outreach.. so its then when I decided to start living by faith..
I chose to go to outreach.. and my place was Thailand.
So I started to live by faith knowing that I was doing God's will.. and I felt this awesome peace telling me that I was doing right. God started to bless me in awesome ways! I knew I was in His path and I felt confident with what I was doing. God had put Thailand in my heart and its still there.. The team was so happy that I decided to finish my dts with them and I knew I was doing right..
Living by faith is the title of my blog because it is what I started doing then and I am living by it still.. It is amazing to let God take control of your life and direct you to where He wants you to be.
I encourage you to do the same.. live by faith! Let God to take control of your life..
Monday, October 1, 2007
sweet.17
My 17th birthday was unforgettable! I remember at 12:0o am on October 19th all the girls of my dts were all around my bed waking me up and then they started carrying me down stairs to the refuge.. all of the were singing: Happy Birthday to you.. it was the best birthday I had had..
In that morning I wasn't expecting anything different.. the speaker made the guys to come and give me a hug and everyone told me: Happy Birthday! I was so happy because since my dad died I did not find fun any of my birthdays.. anyway, this one was awesome.. I was surrounded by people from other countries and it was just perfect.. At lunch time we all went to the dinning room and I found this huge gift (on one of the places I usually sat down) and this big balloon flying all over.. The cool part was that on my place I had nice silverware and plate.. I also had a really nice glass cup. Usually we ate on plastic plates and cups. I opened my gift and it was an awesome picture of my and some of my new friends.. I was like dreaming..
It did not end here.. at 3:30pm we had our intercession time downstairs in the class room.. My mom and my grand parents had come to visit me with gifts and cake..
I was playing the piano and all of us were interceding, when the preacher came up to me to pray for me.. He told me to keep playing while everyone was praying for me.. He told me this awesome word from God that I was going to be used by Him in an awesome way and that He was going to revel that to me in time.. He told me some other things that I cant fully understand yet. It was an awesome day.. I really enjoyed it. I got the best of my presents, the calling that God has for me!
That day God confirmed what He wanted to do with me.. it was an awesome day. At night, a friend from church came to vist and to bring me a present. All of us went to Dairy Queen to eat ice cream and to have a little of fun. It was so nice!
In that morning I wasn't expecting anything different.. the speaker made the guys to come and give me a hug and everyone told me: Happy Birthday! I was so happy because since my dad died I did not find fun any of my birthdays.. anyway, this one was awesome.. I was surrounded by people from other countries and it was just perfect.. At lunch time we all went to the dinning room and I found this huge gift (on one of the places I usually sat down) and this big balloon flying all over.. The cool part was that on my place I had nice silverware and plate.. I also had a really nice glass cup. Usually we ate on plastic plates and cups. I opened my gift and it was an awesome picture of my and some of my new friends.. I was like dreaming..
It did not end here.. at 3:30pm we had our intercession time downstairs in the class room.. My mom and my grand parents had come to visit me with gifts and cake..
I was playing the piano and all of us were interceding, when the preacher came up to me to pray for me.. He told me to keep playing while everyone was praying for me.. He told me this awesome word from God that I was going to be used by Him in an awesome way and that He was going to revel that to me in time.. He told me some other things that I cant fully understand yet. It was an awesome day.. I really enjoyed it. I got the best of my presents, the calling that God has for me!
That day God confirmed what He wanted to do with me.. it was an awesome day. At night, a friend from church came to vist and to bring me a present. All of us went to Dairy Queen to eat ice cream and to have a little of fun. It was so nice!
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