.Christmas.

Christmas is almost here! One week from now!
I cant believe that this year has almost ended.. I am so excited to see what God has for us this coming year, something that I know is that is going to be filled with blessings and new adventures..


I cant pretend everything is okay, I am a little sad because I could not go down to Mexico to spend Christmas with my family.. But I know that God has a purpose and that He is going to surprise me this year around this people. I am thankful God for the new family I have!! But of course I am going to be missing the Mexican Food (the best thing ever!) and the warm feeling of being around people I grew up with.. Not just that but of people that humbly show you how much care about you, and when material things are not the priority.. But God has shown me a lot of things being here and I have learned a lot.. Seriously!!



I cant wait to see God's blessings upon us on this time, to show other people that we care about them and that Christmas is not just about gifts and fun! Of course it is about that but sometimes we miss the real meaning of Christmas that is to remember that God took a human image and came to this world to save us! and that now we need to share His love with everyone!! Not just the lost people in the world but also to our close friends and family, the people we grew up around.. So lets take adventage of this season to show others how much we care about them!

I.know.what.I.am.doing.

I.have.it.planned.out.plans.to.take.care.of.you.plans.to.give.you.the.future.you.hope.for-Jeremiah 29:11

I love this verse.. I think it is my favorite one in the Bible.. it shows me that God is an awesome planner.. He has control of my life and He is taking me a new places that I never imagined I would be. Right now I feel so excited because a new step of my life is begun. I am married!! It sounds crazy, does it not?! I am just 18 years old!! He is an awesome man of God.. who is learning how to please God with his life and that agrees with me about living our whole lives just for God and the ministry..

A lot of awesome things happened and still happening, so many confirmations and words of God that just were: You are doing right! Keep going! There were people who judged us for our ages.. Well, I had a difficult time hearing comments that I wasn't old enough to get married and stuff like that.. other people thought that 'Mexican age' to get married is young like me, but they are TOTALLY WRONG!! There is not an specific age to get married in Mexico, but it is generally when girls and guys are in average between 22 and 30 years old.. not 17!! Well, it was such a hard time for me!! The thing is that I new I was/am doing God's will.. it is awesome how He had all planned out with out us knowing! It is so cool how we can follow God's plan and be so much blessed.
So, here we are! Almost 4 months of being married and going through this amazing adventure with God.. We have so many desires and dreams we want to fulfill, with God I know we will.. It is crazy how things change for good when you trust God and you allow Him to be the center of your life, the most important thing is to die to ourselves and live for Him.. that our passion is Him. We are not perfect and we have struggles as everyone, but we try to go to God when we are struggling and He helps us out with our problems.

We know that with out Him we are nothing, we constantly need to go to Him to ask for His wisdom and His direction in everything.. We are getting ready to start with ministry. Next year we are going to Cuernavaca, Mexico to help start a new YWAM base down there.. we know God has given us this time to learn how to live with each other before we actually start we the ministry.. We have so many dreams and planns, but we are still waiting to see what God has for us in His perfect plan.. God has been so good to me.. I cant even explain it..

I love yoy my Father and I trust you with all of my life.. I am yours forever!

Jesus.Says

I am the way and you dont seek me
I am the truth and you dont believe me
I am the life and you dont enjoy me
I am your Redeemer and you forget!
I am your Savior and you reject me
I am merciful and you always abuse
I am your Guide and you dont follow me
I am just and you are wary
I am love and you chase me
I am light and you dont see me
You call me Teacher but never learn
You call me Good and you dont estimate me
You call me Holy but you dont imitate what I do
You call me Shepherd and you dont listen to me
You call me Lord and you dont obey
You call me King and you make fun of me
You call me Eternal and you dont wait for me
You call me Friend and you betray me
You call me Rich and you dont ask
I gave you memory and you forgot that I am alive
I gave you inteligence and you dont understand me
The more I forgive you, the more you offend me
I wait for you and you dont come
I take care of you and you are not thankful
I seek for you and you hide from me
I call you and you dont listen
I give you a lot and you demand me more
I make you rich and you are corrupt
I make you poor and you get mad at me
I make you wise and you despise me
I make you important and you denigrate me
I make you my son and you dont honor me
Finally, I am your God and you dont have fear

My Glory is yours, if you are unhappy dont blame me..
because I have come to give you all of this and abundanly

God.speaks!

I am so happy! Even if I am not feeling happy I decide to be..

God is my Father and He shows me a lot of things throughout my life.. There is not day when I cannot see His promises and His gifts to me.. When I see all the things He has done for me like giving me air to breathe and the sun's light over me.. I can feel His warmness around me with the embrace He gives me. There are so many ways for God to speak .. It can be through a dream, vision, audible voice, songs, through a person or through His Word! But He is always going to share His heart with me..

Going back to my dts story..
We had this week called: "How to study the Bible.." and it was awesome!! I learned a lot... The speaker was telling us all of this cool things about the Bible and how to put it into practice..

During this time, last year.. i was so confused about my life.. i did not know what to do! I was ready to go to Medical School.. but was it God's dream for me?! I wanted to go to college so bad that being in dts i took this admission test in Dentist School.. and you know what?!?! I was accepted!!! There was two things that I was worrying about: Finishing my dts or going to my dream..

It was a hard decision.. it was not easy AT ALL! I needed to decide if I wanted to go on Outreach and finish my dts or just forget about it and go to college.. The staff told me that if I wanted to go it was fine but that i needed to finish my program and going to Outreach the next year with different team or something.. but they advised me that it would be hard because my team would feel sad because I would leave them and at the same time I would not enjoy my time in college because i would be thinking about Outreach and how it would be..

SO, I had times praying and asking God: What do you want to do with me?!..
I felt like He did not answer back.. hahaha it is funny because when I more needed it God was testing my patience and He was just waiting to see my reaction and to see what decision I would take.. By this I am to saying that God does not answer, because He does.. but there are times where He just waits so see our attitude about it.. and for us to see the way we are without Him. I prayed a lot.. and I wasn't sure if I was getting something from God.. but I remember the speaker talking about this puzzle, he said that our lives are like a puzzle and we should allow God to put the pieces where ever He wants to.. that's the way He is going to make perfect our lives and then its when we are going to start living with a purpose.. with God's purpose. Then he said that when we decide to go in a different path (our own path), God blesses us anyway! But there is God's perfect will fulfilled if we choose to take His path.

So, I said: "OK God, where do you want me?!?! Please tell me!! I need to decide it now!!
But the only thing that came to my mind was to do what I thought was the best.. He was going to bless me any way.. It was so tempting to decide to go to school but I knew God wasnt gonna show me the same things at school than the things He would show me if I decided to go to outreach.. so its then when I decided to start living by faith..

I chose to go to outreach.. and my place was Thailand.
So I started to live by faith knowing that I was doing God's will.. and I felt this awesome peace telling me that I was doing right. God started to bless me in awesome ways! I knew I was in His path and I felt confident with what I was doing. God had put Thailand in my heart and its still there.. The team was so happy that I decided to finish my dts with them and I knew I was doing right..

Living by faith is the title of my blog because it is what I started doing then and I am living by it still.. It is amazing to let God take control of your life and direct you to where He wants you to be.
I encourage you to do the same.. live by faith! Let God to take control of your life..

sweet.17

My 17th birthday was unforgettable! I remember at 12:0o am on October 19th all the girls of my dts were all around my bed waking me up and then they started carrying me down stairs to the refuge.. all of the were singing: Happy Birthday to you.. it was the best birthday I had had..

In that morning I wasn't expecting anything different.. the speaker made the guys to come and give me a hug and everyone told me: Happy Birthday! I was so happy because since my dad died I did not find fun any of my birthdays.. anyway, this one was awesome.. I was surrounded by people from other countries and it was just perfect.. At lunch time we all went to the dinning room and I found this huge gift (on one of the places I usually sat down) and this big balloon flying all over.. The cool part was that on my place I had nice silverware and plate.. I also had a really nice glass cup. Usually we ate on plastic plates and cups. I opened my gift and it was an awesome picture of my and some of my new friends.. I was like dreaming..
It did not end here.. at 3:30pm we had our intercession time downstairs in the class room.. My mom and my grand parents had come to visit me with gifts and cake..

I was playing the piano and all of us were interceding, when the preacher came up to me to pray for me.. He told me to keep playing while everyone was praying for me.. He told me this awesome word from God that I was going to be used by Him in an awesome way and that He was going to revel that to me in time.. He told me some other things that I cant fully understand yet. It was an awesome day.. I really enjoyed it. I got the best of my presents, the calling that God has for me!

That day God confirmed what He wanted to do with me.. it was an awesome day. At night, a friend from church came to vist and to bring me a present. All of us went to Dairy Queen to eat ice cream and to have a little of fun. It was so nice!

the.walk

The next week changed my life forever.. The base director was the speaker of the week and she was talking about animism..

She had some challenges for us like:
-If you go to Asia and you find some musilm group, how would you share with them about Jesus without ofending their culture and religion?!
And some other stuff like that..

During that week, she took us to down town Monterrey, to take a walk around the streets down there.. I am talking as: Monterrey is my hometown! and you know what?! I would not ever believe what I saw if someone else told me.

While we were walking, saw tones of different stuff, like people selling pirate dvds and cds.. this drunk guy sleeping on the side-walk.. people asking for money.. but theres is one thing that got most of my attention: the prostitute girls..

I looked up the meaning of prostitution, and this is what I found:
Prostitution is widely described as the world's oldest profession; the practice of selling sex for cash or other immediate compensation has existed across cultures and times from the ancient Greeks, through religious servitude, to today's madam scandals that have rocked the British Parliament, America's Hollywood, and America's east coast Blue Bloods. Prostitution also crosses class lines, from the poor ‘streetwalkers’ with their stereotyped drug habits and abusive pimps to the high-class brothel and escort service workers with their designer clothes and stylish apartments.

Prostitution is something that has been existed.. but God hates it!
God made sex for marriage and for procreation.. Sadly, these days.. people look at it as something without the value that it should have.. people use it to earn money or sexual pleasure...

It broke my heart.. it was 2:00pm, kids were walking all over the place because they had just gotten out of school.. they were trying to buy some of the pirate movies or games. This prostitute girls where working at that time in the afternoon, its sad how they dont care if there are kids around or if someone is watching them.
I dissembling looked at them how they where dressing up and wearing tons of make up trying to look attractive, my heart felt anger seeing what they were doing with the precious gift of God, but at the same time.. compassion was taking place in my heart, I wanted to hug them.. tell them theres freedom. That even though they are doing wrong, God can forgive, clean and make them new!
Thats why I get happy knowing that they have hope.. But how are they going to know it, if we dont tell them.. how are they going to hear the truth, if we dont share it with them..

There are some many places all over the world, where prostitution is something legal and normal.. it is a normal job for a lot of girls.. I personally pray mercy over them, and I am looking forward for an opportunity to go and tell them they have hope! That there is someone who loves them such as they are, without make up and glamorous clothes.. someone who made them beautiful!

That walk impacted me.. I learned so much that day, and I am still impressed about how the world needs God and how we, the people that know the truth need to shout it loud so they can hear...

the.frist.week

So.. I arrived to the base on Sunday September 17 of 2006..

A staff girl named Tina brought me to my new room.. it was full of unknown girls! I felt SO intimidated..
I did not know how to speak to them.. they were all from US and Canada.. I was the only Spanish speaking girl there! I did not know English AT ALL.. well I knew High School English, but its nothing to do with the actual language.. Tina told me that all of the students were in the base already with exception of the two guys that were coming from Minnesota.. the girl named Amy was going to be picked up from the airport that evening.. and we were expecting the guy to come later that week because he had flew accidentally to Monterey, CA insted of Monterrey, Mexico. So he had to wait until his parents fixed the whole thing.. his story was hilarious!!

That night, we had our first meeting with the staff and our leaders.. They presented them selves to us and told us the rules and the process we would be going thru. That first week we would be going to "La Quinta" to have our introduction week. Were we would know each other and have a few little classes. On Monday, Jon the guy who had been lost.. came and we met him.. then Tina and Pepe (staff members) took us to a tour in Monterrey.. it wasnt new for me! haha..

I was going completly crazy that first week! No one of the students knew how to speak fluent Spanish.. just this one girl from Idaho.. her name is Sarah. She was the only one who was practicing her college Spanish with me and we could not understand each other sooo good. But we tried. It was fun!

That week went by so fast.. I was kinda frustrated because of the language barrier but at the same time so excited seeing what God was going to do.. Eventhough I felt intimidated.. we all became a family..
There were 2 guys from Canada.. Ahsley and Josh. 10 from the states: Jon and Amy form Minnesota, Sarah from Idaho.. Bobby, Heather and Bekah from Virginia.. Jill from Wisconsin, Nathan and Maribel form Texas and Liz from North Dakota. And one pretty girl from Mexico.. Me, the youngest one!

The first week of class was named: "How to listen God's voice..." it was awesome! God talked a lot to us in that week we were impress in how God was moving in that class room that very first week..

I am never going to forget the time were we were in our intersession time and it was time to choose the place we wanted to go for outreach.. I terribly felt a passion for Asia and Thailand was one of the options.. So I decided to go to Thailand..

God was doing so much in my heart.. I started to see His hand in my life in an awesome way..

Ron Wilson, the worship leader in that DTS had invited me to become part of his team.. playing the piano! I was sooo excited because te piano had been one of my passions.. and after I left the worship team in my church I thought I wasnt going to play anymore.. But I was wrong!

everything.has.a.beginning.

It was May of 2006..
I was in my last month of HighSchool.. at that time I was in the process of kinda dating a guy that I thought he was 'the one'... my life was going 'perfect' I thought..

I always said I was going to be a doctor.. a famous and important doctor that would save people with cancer and hiv.. I was so excited on going to college! I got ready or the admission test and I thought I would be there.. The school had capacity for 500 students but the test had been taken for 5,00o guys and girls.. That meant that 4,500 people would not be able to make it.. and guess what?! I was one of those!!
It was so hard for me.. It was my dream!! What was I going to do?! I cried and cried.. At the same time this guy (the one that I told you earlier) and I broke up! I made a commitment to God.. saying that I would not date again until I had found my future husband..

My days were going pretty slow.. it was July already and I was getting so sad seeing that all of my friends were getting ready for college and I was at home just crying and having a bad time.. I need to say that I had a bad attitude.. I did not like anything! I was just complaning about things..

At that time, my Church was planning on going to this missions trip to Cd. Victoria, Tmps.. that place was 4 hours away from my house.. My mom was going and in the morning of the day that they were leaving she was trying to convince me to join them but I just kept crying and telling her that God had forgotten about me and that He did not love me enough to let me go to the Medical School.. But she, wisely told me: "Laura, dont you remember one night that we were praying to see what was God's will for your future and you told Him that if you could be a doctor you were going to serve Him.. but if He would not allow you to go to College you would serve Him full time?!" Oh my gosh! She was right! I completly forgot about it!!
I imediatly went to my room and prayed asking God another opportunity.. so I got ready, made my suitcase and we left for this missions trip.. It was a short term missions... During the week I was a little kids teacher, teaching them about God and Salvation.. at the end of the week more then 150 kids had recieved Jesus in their hearts.. and I was so happy for it.. God changed my heart in that week. We were staying in a really poor comunity that God showed me how much He has blessed me. My life completly changed!! My heart was different. God showed me so much those days.

When we came back, my mom told me about this School of Evangelism or Discipleship Training School that she had heard a couple years ago.. The institution name was YWAM - Youth With A Mission and we personally went to the base in my town for information about the next Discipleship Training School (DTS).. It was going to start on September 17th of that year to end on February of 2007.. I did not like the idea so much, because in November 2006 Dentist School was going to be starting and I thought: "Maybe God wants me there..." But He did not..
I did my application for the DTS hoping that I wasnt going to be accepted.. because the youngest age was 18 and I was 16! So I sent it hopeless.. thinking that I was not going to attend.

Two weeks before the school started... i got this package from YWAM! No way?! Was I part of it?! Yep! I WAS....
SO I started to get ready.. I lived 3 hours from the Mexican-American border.. so I came to the States in a short weekend to buy new clothes, new suitcase, new everythig... I was so excited, God had changed my bad attitud... I was getting open to what God wanted to do in those 5 months of my life...

The time came.. we loaded my mom's car with my luggage and we left for the base.. The base was just 25min away from my house.. I did not know anything about YWAM before.. so I thought it was just a program/school in my town.. Later, I realized that YWAM is all over the world and that I could have chose another country to go.. but it was late, and I recognized that God wanted to do something with me in my own country and town.. with the people I was going to met later that day.

You.Said

Oh Lord I ask for the nations!!

Sometimes I start thinking about how God cares so much about the world because before He went back to Heaven, He told the disciples: "Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit." He did not say: 'Go and talk to a few people and you are done.." He wanted us to reach the nations. He wanted us to have a heart for the nations. He cares a lot for all the people outside in the world.. He does not want us to be locked in our own worlds, He wants us to go and preach Salvation to everyone.

Sometimes we are so worried about of what am I going to wear? Oh my gosh! I dont have any new clothes! Or: Dang! This week I did not go out to eat! But you know what?! Have you ever thought about the hundreds of thousands of kids, women and men outside in the world that dont even have a house where to live.. That they just have a couple used and old-fashioned shirts and a damaged pair of sandals.. Maybe you do not see it everyday.. But that exists!

I am from Mexico, and thank God I grew up having all what I always wanted.. My dad died when I was nine, but my mom worked so hard (shes still does) to give me what I needed and more. But I could see when I walked on the streets all the people asking for money and extending their hands saying: Dame, Dame! Which means: Give me, Give me.. Give me what?! They dont care, their poverty status is so high, their belongings are almost nothing.. So they want anything you could give them.. Food, Money, Clothes.. It is sad, but it is real.. So everday, I try to be thankful with what I have and thank God for a new day, for my food, for the few things that I own..

I just ask God to take care of the peolpe who need stuff to live and to send people to tell the that they have hope, that theres someone how died for them to give them abundant life.. Eternal life!

You said, "ask and you will receive whatever you need."
You said, "pray and I'll hear from heaven,and I'll heal your land."
You said Your glory will fill the earthlike water the sea.
You said, "lift up your eyes;the harvest is here, the kingdom is near."

You said, "ask and I'll give the nations to you."
oh Lord, that's the cry of my heart.
Distant shores and the islands will see Your light as it rises on us..

God my prayer is that You will make me be part of the people who goes to the nations to reach the broken and hopeless.. That you will use me in Your perfect will.. I declare and believe that one day every knee will bow and worship You.. Amen

If.We.Are.The.Body.

I crowded in worship today

As she slips in Trying to fade into the faces

The girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know

Farther than they know

But if we are the Body

Why aren't His arms reaching

Why aren't His hands healing

Why aren't His words teaching

And if we are the Body

Why aren't His feet going

Why is His love not showing them there is a way

There is a way

A traveler is far away from home

He sheds his coat

And quietly sinks into the back row

The weight of their judgmental glances tells him that his chances

Are better out on the road

But if we are the Body

Why aren't His arms reaching

Why aren't His hands healing

Why aren't His words teaching

And if we are the Body

Why aren't His feet going

Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus paid much too high a price

For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the Body of Christ

The Bible says in 1 Corinthians 12:
27 Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it. 28And in the church God has appointed first of all apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then workers of miracles, also those having gifts of healing, those able to help others, those with gifts of administration, and those speaking in different kinds of tongues. 29Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Do all work miracles? 30Do all have gifts of healing? Do all speak in tongues? Do all interpret? 31But eagerly desire the greater gifts. And now I will show you the most excellent way.

The apostle Paul in his letter to the people in Corinth.. and he was teaching them about the gifts that have been given to us.. and he compares the church as the Body of Christ.. If we are christians and we attend to a church every sunday and somehow we are serving.. we are called to be the Body of Christ.. With a purpose.. with a MISSION..

Right now around the whole world there are people dying and screaming for love and afection.. they are hunger but more then physical hunger is a spiritual hunger that cries out to us.. To us the ones to who has been given the work to bring them to the feet of Christ.. But there is a big problem.. It seems that the Body of Christ is so tired lately.. Tired of living routine.. It seems that the Body is so concentrate in its own life and world.. that has forgotten about the task that was entrusted it to do..

Theres so much work to do.. So many places to go.. So many people to reach... A lot of souls that need to be saved that need to know the truth.. that need to see life.. Real life..

The first part of this blog is a song.. and it really hit me hard.. I am part of the Body and I want to reach, to teach, to go, to show the love that I once recieved..

Are you part of the Body?!

New.Beginning!

God had a perfect plan for me, a new beginning!
I will wirte more about it later..

God Bless You!

I.Am.Loved!

*I have loved you says the LORD* Malachi 1:2

How does it make you feel to know that someone loves you? Many people are just a little uneasy when someone comes up to them and says: "I love you".
We all have a need to be loved. When people are difficult to understand, when I wonder what makes them thick, I find that what they most need, ad what they most want, is to be loved. Theres nothing that breaks the hardest heart like the feeling of being loved. All of us can face terrible opposition and suffering if we feel approved of, accepted, and loved by someone whose opinion matters to us.

Theres an even greater feeling that knowing another person loves you, and that is knowing that is knowing that God loves you. There is no greater feeling than that. When I feel that God loves me and approves of me, I can face a thousand foes. And the message af Malachi is just that, You are loved. We all have skeletons in our closets, and God knows every of them, yet He still says, "I LOVE YOU".

I hope you can be touched by this.. and I hope you have a great day!

God's.Thoughts!

I am here right now looking at Jon.. how is he writing God's thoughts.. it makes me happy to know that God speaks to him and shares with him His thoughts and heart..
It made me think how much have I spent listening God's heart?! How many times I have heard His sweet voice?!
The truth is that when the time to start reading the Bible or praying I feel so tired and I really dont want to do it.. But then I start thinking about the wonderful things that the Bible talks about and how I am blessed with the things I read.. I want my heart to be more like Jesus' I want to feel His presence and smell His aroma.. I want to feel His warm embrace and be touched by His hand..

Lord. I am so sorry about those times that you have tried to talk to me and I seem just to distracted.. or when you are trying to get my attention with the circumstances around me.. I am sorry about being selfich and just being so focused in my-self.. the truth is that I want to know You more and more.. and serve You with more of my heart.. with all the things I do.. You are the King of my heart in Your hands is my life.. my days you have them counted.. Here is my heart Lord, change it.. break it if is necessary and put a new one in my.. Show me your will.. give me purpose.. show me the way that I need to take to go to your heart.. I need you.. I need your help.. I cant do this myself.. You are the Only One who can undo what I became.. Clean me my sin.. Revel to me whats wrong in my heart and mind.. I wanna be more like you and share the whole world about you.. Take me higher fill me with your love.. I am Yours!
Amen

Right now I feel like my life is just going all wierd.. I am 17 years old and married.. I believe that it is God's will to be married to this awesme man of God.. but I still need to have my mind focused on God and in what He wants me to do.. I just need direction and prayer.. I need to understad God's will for me..

Thank you for reading this.. I just wanted to share my heart.. God bless you!

What.Is.Love?!

*Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs* 1st Corinthians 13:4-5

A fresh definition of love can be quite difficult to come by. A two word definition is "selfless concern", and if I had to narrow it to one word, it would be "unselfishness" or "brokenness". That is what Paul ment by "the most excellent way".

Frist, Paul describes love as grace renewed. In 2nd Corinthians 3:18 he says: "And we... being transformed into His likeness with ever-incraesing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit." Believers often find themselves going from glory to glory in Church or in their quiet time. Often the transition is accompanied by suffering, but every experience of being changed carries with it a fresh baptism of love, of unselfishness. Its like tha calm after the storm. Its this calm that is described in 1st Corinthians 13:4-5. This is a description of grace renewed. It is not only a renewal of faith and trust, but it is a peace that is devoid of bitterness.

Second, Paul describes love as a guilt removed, and that in two ways: first, we dont feel guilty, and second, we dont make others feel guilty. When grace is renewed and we are changed from glory to glory. the guilt is removed, and we feel so good. Guilt is the most crippling thing in the world. But when guilty feeling is gone, the need to make others feel guilty is not there. It is when we feel totally fogiven, totally absloved, that we will find it easy to forgive others.

Third, it is also a description of the Golden Rule: "In everything, do to others what you would have them to do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets " Matt. 7:12 In others words, treat people the way you would like them to treat you. How do you feel whan people make you feel guilty?! How do you feel when people blame you?! It makes you feel like dirt; you feel awful. God keeps no record of wrongs.

Perhaps your marriage is in trouble. If that is the case, start living like this. Dont wait for your husband or wife to do it. You do it. It will heal your marriage. "Do to others what you would like them to do to you".

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This is my devotional of today and it really wa a blessing for me.. I need to start living for others and not for myself.. Start doing to other what I would like them to do to me and stop my selfishness so I can become more like Jesus.
I hope you can learn from this as I did.. Have a good day! Blessings!

Sometimes.God.Says.Stay

*Whenever the cloud lifted from above the tabernacle, they would set out: but if the cloud did not lift, they did not set out -until the day it lifted* Ex 40:36-37


Sometimes I dont know if I am walking in the right path because I feel like I am just standing with out moving or growing and my heart is just breaking because of the circunstances but.. Sometimes it is God's will for you to just stay.. You may want to move on but God may want you to stay. You may say, 'Its time to get moving. Lets go the show on the road.' But God says, 'Stay. In quietness and trust is your strength'. Is 30:15
The ancient people of Israel had to learn this lesson.. They had to learn to take their cues from the visible glory of God -the pillar of fire by night and the cloud by day.
Israel was locked into this manner of direct guidance from God. They could only move when the cloud lifted. If the cloud didnt lift, they stayed. No matter how tedious and tasteless that particular place in the wilderness might have been, they had to 'stay put' until they were relesed to move on. The cloud did not adjust to the Israelites; they had to adjust to the cloud. It often takes as much courage to stay as does to move. It may take even more faith sometimes to remain where you are than to explore a new geographical area. It may not be mere boredom, however, that tempts you to move on. Sometimes it s opposition. Whatever the case may be, whenever God says: 'Stay', it is with a definite purpose. You will never be sorry whan you remain where we are, even though you may not know the reasons at the time, if God says you must.

looking.for.directions

Today I came home from Tina and Raul house.. for those who dont know I am 'working' there as a Nanny of their kids.. After the day I saw Jon and the friest thing that I told him was about how my day was.. NO easy at all.. I had struggles with the younger boy.. he was just not listening at what i was telling him and he was desobeying me at all.. I stared getting really mad and it just frustrated my day.. I can keep telling bout that but it makes remember that I had a bad day..
I came home and Jon and I started reading the Bible and praying.. I started telling God that I want Him to show me His way for me.. the way that i should be followin.. it is difficul to keep your focus when you have so much things to think about and and things to work out when you are just married.. it is fun but sometimes difficult.. Anyway I was prayin and I started reading Psalm 32 that talks about confessing your sins to God and He is going to forgive you..
I just said: God please take away from me that that is obstructing/hindering me to be focus in You and that is blocking Your blessings for me..Then I acknowledged my sin to God and He did not cover up my iniquity. I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the LORD "— and He forgave the guilt of my sin. And the I read this verse on Psalm 32:8 -I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.- Maybe this doesnt make any sense to you but for me was an incredible answer.. because is God telling me that He is taking care of me and He is going to show me the way that I should take.. So I can be walkin in His will..

Thank you God for this day and for the awesome things that you have for me.. I decide to walk toward your will and never forget about you.. keep showing me the way that You want me to go.. I love you.. Amen

What.Is.Your.Thorn.in.the.flesh?

*As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him; for He knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust* Psalm 103:13-14

What is your thorn in the flesh? Is it a frailty? It may be a physical problem. I may be an emotional problem. It may be a personal weakness.
It may be a fault: a defect, or imperfection - one that feels embarrassing and humbling. You may habe prayed about it a thousand times. You may have asked people to lay their hands on you and to pray that this imperfection would disappear. I myself have done this.
It may be a friend. SOmetimes a dear friend can be a real thorn in the flesh. Perhaps he is difficult. You want to be with him, but afterward you fell frustrated or all the worse for being in his company. It may be a love-hate relationship. You feel you cant be without this person, but the relationship is always edgy, prickly. You feel like even discussing it would be sopontaneous combustion.
It may be an enemy. This person seems to live to make you look bad! But it may be that your enemy who keeps you on your toes is raised us by God to keep you sharp and careful.
Could your thorn in teh flesh be that you have know failure? It may have benn financial failure or a job loss. Or, when facing temptation, you failed, and the whole scenario haunts you daily.
Maybe someone has lied about you. You cant defend yourself. Peolple believe the lie. You long with all your being to b evindicated. But God withholds vindication. This could be your thorn in the flesh.
Dont despise your thorn, wathever it is. Donte resent it. It exists by God's sovereing pleasure. Its for your good. Its the best thing that ever happened to you next to your conversion and anointing. Its only a matter of time before you will appreciate it.

I.know.what.I.am.doing...

I.have.it.planned.out.plans.to.take.care.of.you.plans.to.give.you.the.future.you.hope.for-Jeremiah 29:11

I love this verse.. I think it is my favorite one in the Bible.. it shows me that God is an awesome planner.. He has control of my life and He is taking me a new places that I never imagined I would be. Right now I feel so excited because a new step of my life is begun. I am married!! It sounds crazy, does it not?! I am just 18 years old!! He is an awesome man of God.. who is learning how to please God with his life and that agrees with me about living our whole lives just for God and the ministry.. A lot of awesome things happened and still happening, so many confirmations and words of God that just were: You are doing right! Keep going!

There were people who judged us for our ages.. Well, I had a difficult time hearing comments that I wasn't old enough to get married and stuff like that.. other people thought that 'Mexican age' to get married is young like me, but they are TOTALLY WRONG!! There is not an specific age to get married in Mexico, but it is generally when girls and guys are in average between 22 and 30 years old.. not 17!! Well, it was such a hard time for me!! The thing is that I new I was/am doing God's will.. it is awesome how He had all planned out with out us knowing! It is so cool how we can follow God's plan and be so much blessed.

So, here we are! Almost 4 months of being married and going through this amazing adventure with God.. We have so many desires and dreams we want to fulfill, with God I know we will..
It is crazy how things change for good when you trust God and you allow Him to be the center of your life, the most important thing is to die to ourselves and live for Him.. that our passion is Him. We are not perfect and we have struggles as everyone, but we try to go to God when we are struggling and He helps us out with our problems. We know that with out Him we are nothing, we constantly need to go to Him to ask for His wisdom and His direction in everything..

We are getting ready to start with ministry. Next year we are going to Cuernavaca, Mexico to help start a new YWAM base down there.. we know God has given us this time to learn how to live with each other before we actually start we the ministry.. We have so many dreams and planns, but we are still waiting to see what God has for us in His perfect plan..

God has been so good to me.. I cant even explain it..

I love yoy my Father and I trust you with all of my life.. I am yours forever!

Does.God.Have.Your.Attention?

*Woe to me that I dwell in Meshech, that I live among the tents of Kedar! Too long have I lived among those who hate peace. I am a man of peace: but when I speak, they are for war* Psalm 120:5-7

Psalm 120 gives us a number of exemples of different ways that God uses to get your attention. Meshech and Kedar aymbolize places where we do not like to have to live. Are you living in the "wrong"place? Perhaps you are feeling a little sorry for yourself. But maybe God put you there so that you will value what really matters. Because of an unhappy situation, where things just aren't the way you would like them to be, God gets your attention. He can also use danger, delay, or discord to get your attention.
Meshech and Kedar also symbolize places of danger. kedar, for example, refers to the Bedouins who were a perpetual problem to the travelers. Are you one of those people who enjoy living on the edge of danger, but now find yourself in trouble?
Another part of the distress, delay, is found in verse 6: "Too long have I lived amongo those who hate peace". Perhaps your distress is because of a prolonged situation. You have waited and waited for the situation to change. In reality, however, all this time perhaps God has been waiting for you to turn to Him.
God also uses discor to get your attention: "I am a man of peace; but when I speal, they are for war" (v. 7). Are you in such a situation of discord? perhaps your marriage in on the rocks; perhaps you are living somewhere where there is nothing but tension. God can use dicord to get your attention.
What makes for peace in when we com eto terms with the fact that the problem is not merely the situation but our reaction to the situation. A man of peace will defuse heated situations, not adding to their mistery.. Such a man can do this because internally he has discovered and experienced "perfect peace" (Isa. 26:3). It is called "peace of God, wich passeth all understanding" (Phil. 4:7).

why.missions

A really good friend sent me this e.mail and I really liked it..

Why Missions? Because Jesus, the greatest missionary was sent Heobeyed - He came- He saved and He commissioned us; we are sent in thesame way with the same commission as HimWhy Missions? Because 2.6 Billion have never heard the name of Jesus;another 2 billion have heard His name, but did not respond; and of theremaining 2 billion who have responded... millions are not enjoying theChristian Life.Why Missions? Because we have so much abundance... financially,spiritually, and in all other resources compared to others. 1.1billionlive on less than $1.00 per day; 40% of the world live on less than $2per day; and because every day, almost 16,000 children die from hunger-related causes--one child every five seconds.Why Missions? Because Jesus promised that He will come again to bringall of natural history to an end WHEN the Gospel of the Kingdom hasbeen fully preached in all nations.Why Missions? Because God loves you and He trusts you, and He likesyou and He believes in you. He has equipped you and empowered you... topreach and to teach and to heal and to set free the peoples of thenations. YOU can do it.Why Missions? Because today 1.5 billion children are at risk..kidnapped, enslaved, in sweat shops, poverty, prostitution, homelesson the streets... because 4 out of 5 children in the third world go towork instead of to school...Why Missions? Because Jesus promised that He would come again when the'fullness of the Gentiles' has fully come.

I started thinking and I said.. the world really needs God, the world needs to see His power and His glory. We, the people who has the calling should start working in the mission filed RIGHT NOW! The Bible says: 'The Earth is going to be fill of the glory of God like the water in the sea' is not it amazing?! I am so excited to start working in the mission field and start bringing the good news to those peolpe who needs to listen.. and when everysingle one of the population in this world knew about the only Savior.. HE WILL COME!! Yeah, Jesus.. Come! Amen.

adapting.to.new.life

I am stating to believe that I am here with a puropse..
things are getting better and my relationship with God is growing and growing.. I am so ready to start doing what He has for my life and to start bringing people to the knowledege of Christ..
I love my life.. I love my family.. I love my husband, he is one of the best gifts I could ever recieve from God.. I love Jesus and all those things that He is going to do in our lives..

home.sick

Being in Minnesota for the last week and a half hasn't been the greatest thing that I could imagine.. I believe God has brought me here for a reason and I want to follow His steps.. But is a little difficult when you have some things in your heart that are not completly right and God wants to change them.. I allowed God to do it, but now I realized that is painful.. I dont want to care so much about it because I know God knows my life and He is gonna bless me in every single way that I can imagine..
Right now I am in the process of marrying an awesome guy that God brought to my life, he has helped me to see things from God's perspective.. I am really thankful with God for Jon and for the things He is going to do with us together in the ministry.. We both believe that God brought us together for a purpose and we are ready to start doing what God has planned for us..
I miss my family and friends, but God is showing me a lot of things through this process and I am apprecieting that there are persons who really love me for who I am..
The weather now is not so much helpful.. is cloudy and dark!! But tomorrow the sun is going to give its shine..