God's.Thoughts!

I am here right now looking at Jon.. how is he writing God's thoughts.. it makes me happy to know that God speaks to him and shares with him His thoughts and heart..
It made me think how much have I spent listening God's heart?! How many times I have heard His sweet voice?!
The truth is that when the time to start reading the Bible or praying I feel so tired and I really dont want to do it.. But then I start thinking about the wonderful things that the Bible talks about and how I am blessed with the things I read.. I want my heart to be more like Jesus' I want to feel His presence and smell His aroma.. I want to feel His warm embrace and be touched by His hand..

Lord. I am so sorry about those times that you have tried to talk to me and I seem just to distracted.. or when you are trying to get my attention with the circumstances around me.. I am sorry about being selfich and just being so focused in my-self.. the truth is that I want to know You more and more.. and serve You with more of my heart.. with all the things I do.. You are the King of my heart in Your hands is my life.. my days you have them counted.. Here is my heart Lord, change it.. break it if is necessary and put a new one in my.. Show me your will.. give me purpose.. show me the way that I need to take to go to your heart.. I need you.. I need your help.. I cant do this myself.. You are the Only One who can undo what I became.. Clean me my sin.. Revel to me whats wrong in my heart and mind.. I wanna be more like you and share the whole world about you.. Take me higher fill me with your love.. I am Yours!
Amen

Right now I feel like my life is just going all wierd.. I am 17 years old and married.. I believe that it is God's will to be married to this awesme man of God.. but I still need to have my mind focused on God and in what He wants me to do.. I just need direction and prayer.. I need to understad God's will for me..

Thank you for reading this.. I just wanted to share my heart.. God bless you!